arghhhhhhhhhhhh..i just wanna be mad, angry and thank God there's twiiter and blog and facebook..but nah i skipped facebook..too many people there :D
I HATE I HATE I HATE..
I sumtimes feel like..i regret for the decision i made..which is deciding to come back here Indo..why not stay there Brisbane.. it'll be much much much better for me and future..
but then when i thought about it. will i or can i met Jesus and know Him like how i know Him now?
No. I don't think so..so when i say i regret to come home..do i really mean it? No..it was just an expression..
im happy i get to meet Jesus here, i get to live close to my family...
but im not happy with my life now, especially with my decision..so it is a bad choice?
No i guess not...i guess He wants me to learn something and wants me to go thru something..i don't know what's HIS plan..but i guess i'll just stick with Him..
yes i am angry right now and i kinda regret of the decision i made years ago..buttttttttttt arghhhhh
one side of me : feels grace that i get to know Him
another side of me : feels so regret to make such decision
and now im torn between two..regret or not
but eventho i regret it, decision has been made, i can't go back now..i have to keep moving i have to keep walking..lucky for me i have HIM to walk with me, to go thru all this with me..i thank You Lord for always being there for me...
i don't know..if anyone read this, they might think that im nuts asking questions and answered it myself..
well right now i just wanna write/type anything..just anything..
i am so dissapointed...
someone that i thought i can share with, someone that i thought had my back, someone that i thought feels the same as i do..
had change..because of this effin gadget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we like barely talk about anything that we used to talk and share because of that stupid gadget!!!
yes i love gadget! yet i hate it to my bone!! for some reason!!!!
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