i'm sorry....and Thank You...:D and Curcol hahaha

o my..shame on me..this last few blogs was all about how upset i was, how sad, how anger, how dissapointed..

o my..o my...me so shame on it :( how pathetic i was this couple few days/ last few weeks..

i do apologize if anyone ever read this blog..it is so inappropriate that i convert all my anger to my writing :(

sorry sorry sorry and sorry...

hmmm...i decided to make a better me :D esp. when i read blog i wrote around 2006 - 2008 :D hihihi..

okay...

yesterday continuing on the RIP Feeling...it is so funny that the feeling hasn't completely died..
Thanks to Holy Spirit kept telling me to forgive and forget..

as of me before i knew HIM...this is a dead end..i won't forgive people that fast, esp. when i get hurt.
but..the difference with me now is..i don't know..i just have a BIG HEART that easily to forgive and forget..
WOW..this is credit to God alone not me not him not anyone  but God alone..

i Thank You Lord to make me a better me..but it is not enough, i still need to improve and step to the next level of better me :)

so we hugged and say sorry to each other...and start a new page and forget what has happened...

and promise not to repeat the mistakes and me too promise that won't easily upset or sensitive...

last night he went to pola bugar for badminton with cabo..i supposed to go to mummy and daddy's home but my whole body so sore and i feel like cracking up..

ooppsiiee hope it isn't the sign of getting old hahahahaha...nay nay nay...

nah..its prolly coz i haven't had enough rest and relax..it's always rush rush rush...esp. since saturday where we (me and mummy in law) have to prepare food for sunday celebration :)

ah..forget to blog about the celebration...

anyhow...mum in law asked me to her room and asked me about how i felt about the business and how i felt about hubby that is not discipline..coz she is worried a lot about him / us..:(
sorry mum..doesn't mean to worry you though..

well i just speak up my mind..i have no worry coz in the bible on 

Psalms 37 : 5 (Mazmur 37 : 5) says:

"Roll your way on the LORD; Trust also in HIM, and He will work."

"Serahkanlah hidupmu kepada Tuhan dan percayalah kepadaNya, dan Ia akan bertindak."

well if i can break it down, it is like this;

1. Roll your way on the Lord (Serahkanlah hidupmu kepada Tuhan)

means : your way = life = hidupmu (all your life, urself, ur worries, ur work, ur business, ur job, ur families, ur want - like literally everything..every single thing in ur life that u worry) on the Lord = kepadaNya (give it to Him, all of those u worry of)

2. Trust also in Him

means : Trust in Him = percayalah kepadaNya (like when u trust ur partner, or husband or wife or mum or dad or children..even if you can't trust any of them, you still can trust HIM the Lord, our creator (He won't harm you but He will teach you to be a better person) - or simply just think what is TRUST.

3. then He will work

means of He will work = Ia akan bertindak (if you trust Him, you give all ur worry to Him, He then will and can work..if you didn't trust Him. how can HE work right? )

For example : an Illustration.

You go to a restaurant to have dinner, lets say a sushi bar.

How can you go there and eat there if you don't trust them. How do you know if they poisoned you, you don't right? why do you wanna go there? coz u trust them, you trust them that they won't poisoned you as their customer :) and you know they serve fresh.

coz if they serve salmon, it must be serve fresh otherwise u will get a full of germ salmon.

okay anyhow..hope whoever read it understand or if no on read it, this is just a reminder for me hehehe...
anyway..i told my mum in law (i don't get used to say mum in law..feels weird) so im just gonna write mum :D
SO i tell mum not to worry coz we aren't supposed to worry..and i myself..no im not worry..i just pray and i know He will work :)

i mean for her age, she shouldn't be worry :( poor her..have to worry about us kids...so sorry mum..

love her like my mum already coz she is too always love me like her own kiddo..like cc cc and hubby..
seriously people..i really thank God for giving me a mum like her..

i mean..it is damn hard to find such a mum in law. all i heard whether it is from my friend or anyone i met. Never did i heard they have such a great mum in law that doesn't treat them like they are the daughter in law.
all i ever heard was how standard and sumtimes bad their mum in law are..

oh..FYI, now i live with mum and dad and sis and famz of my hubby...
and the reaction i got is o my God you live with ur mum in law and sister in law? or
in a better version you live with ur mum and sister in law?

i was like..yeah...why is that a problem and why such a fuss?
and they started to say things what happen if you stay with ur hubby parents and in law..and bla bla bla..

i just laughed at 'em and say..God is good..He gave me such a great family..we never had argument or like fight over things. They are understanding..and they are great..
but me..i'm the one who have to be ashame of myself..coz i sumtimes wake up late and go home late that i rarely helped them in the kitchen..and never did they say a thing or act weird to me...in fact they cooked for us..whoaaa..i really feel shame...

which from now on i should wake up early hehehee..and helped :D Coz the maid can't cook yet and work like a turtle hihihihi...

well...they then woww..u r lucky..yes i am..and mummy friend also often asked her about where do i live with whom..and they also start to yappy yappy..and mummy like cut them and say..oh no..eva have such a great in law, this and those and they were like shut up and only say oh..she's so lucky..mummy like " yeah.. of course she is"
and it's alllllllllllllllllllllllll credited to my one and only God : Jesus Christ :)

Love You Jesus