okay.. Faith the word i guess...
Well this is a connecting lesson story :D...u'll know what i meant when u finished reading it.
a week earlier : in my mind i was thinking
"God how to write this esay, Living according to word of God, living IN the word of God..."
(Believe me He hears you, whatever you are going to say or even without u saying it, He knew)
on sunday : songs : God is able to do all things, in the past, present and forever
then couple days ago one lady that i introduce to Jesus, now she believe in Jesus.
text me, and she said " E, i have read about Jesus in Matthew and Marcus, i'm so touched and so interested in Jesus in person. The way HE treated people, how HE love everyone and not judging"
i'm stunned..my heart says to me "Have you touched people heart as Jesus touched people heart?"
i kept it in my heart and suddenly speak to myself, a strong will..."I will be like Jesus, I wanna be like Jesus..He is my role model. I wanna be like Jesus."
okay the day go on..until at night i went to, you can say a bible school not theology school.
the pastor preach about "how to be like Jesus" and else but we are now focusing on the how to be like Jesus part. and not allowed to complain or whinning
From there, my will to be like Jesus is stronger and stronger, my compassion is back, then without me knowing when my first love is backkkkkkk...i now love to read bible and talk to God and praise..
like weeks, months ago i sort of lost my first love, and i kept on asking the love from God again to fulfill me..and yes i got it now. Thank You Jesus a lot.
well that's not it yet..
after the bible school me and hubby went home. @ home before sleep i read a bit of twitter and one tweet from @Rick Warren catch me, it says: I'm sorry is not enough, one should say : I was wrong, I'm sorry, Will you forgive me?
i read that and say to hubby for fun "I was wrong, i'm sorry, will you forgive me?".
When i done nothing, no mistakes it is sooo easy to say such things..then snobbish me says "ahh its easyyyy"
okay..so...it's sleep time
after pray and bible.
The next day..i went to pick up my lil brother. when drives back, it is traffic and i lost a bit control. so i bumped on to other cars. Thank God the old lady didnt charge me anything. well her car is fine. Thank GOD heapsss...
i didnt know that my car was a mess until i got home, taking shower and ready to go to work.
Hubby says..did u crash just now? i was shocked! huh? i thought its fine, my brother look at the car and he say was fine, so i worried nothing. but he was wrong, the car a mess..not big mess just little..
then he is angry and furious, me scared :( and upset. i am in a bad mood for the whole day, but keep praying Holy Spirit strengthen me, i know it was all my fault, but he shouldn't be like that.
but not allowed to complain so the whole day altho me in a bad mood i kept on give thanks and asked Holy spirit to strengthen me..and sing and cry :)
anyway hubby seems upset for the whole day and i don't know what to do.
we went home, hubby went for badminton and me crying coz he abandoned me.
so i just pray and give thanks and decide to text him saying : "i know you must be hate me to death right now..i just wanna say I was wrong, i'm sorry, will you forgive me?". i did say sorry before but i didn't say i was wrong and ask for your forgiveness, but now i ask for your forgiveness.
then i pray and read bible and sleep. so i have do what God wants me to do :D
(but if its me weeks ago, i wouldnt be able to do such things, i wud text him and say that why he has to be mad, why he has to be upset, it's just a minor things, money can fix and end up fighting)
(but now i choose to calm down and give in)
it's all because of JESUS..THE NAME OF JESUS..Praise the Lord Jesus..
SO HUBBY CAME BACK AROUND 11.30 PM. I FELL ASLEEP ALREADY.
KNOW WHAT HE DO?
HE GO DOWNSTAIRS TO COOK NOODLE WITHOUT EVEN HUG OR KISS ME OR CARE ABOUT ME.
THEN HE CAME BACK UPSTAIRS. AND KNOW WHAT HE DO TO ME!!!!
HE KISSEDDDD MEEEEEEE :D hahahahaha.. Jesuss thankkksss a lotttt...
then when he wants to sleep, he hugged me and say he can't abandoned me for too long, he can't not care about me, he loves me soo much eventho i bumped his car :D
HEH??? Me was like whattt?? Thankkk uuu Jesusssss..Thank uuuu Lord.
i listened to your word and do it and then u repay me with things that i don't expect :D WOWWW...
from the bottom of my heart i thought he would just go to sleep and tomorrow will be a bit nicer to me.
but look at what he did, he hugged me and say stuffs that i don't expect coming from him.
altho he lovessss me sooooo much i can see by his action but he don't really say things like
" i can't abandoned u for too long, i love u so much" i was like :-0 "
i love u Jesusssss..i loveee uuuuuuuuuuuu thank u..
and know what it's not as hard as i used to think. that say sorry and admit our fault is the hardest thing ever.
it's not i can tell u its not..asked for God strength and HE will give you that :)
me :
a stubborn
a snobbish
a hard to say sorry
a don't wanna lose
a prestige
a easy 2 upset
me
but God changed me...to be who i am now...
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