i'm in love with baking :) cooking is yet to come i guess..
so it pop up in mind that i wanna make something Cheesy or Chocolaty
The hardest things living with 2 families in one house is that they don't eat the same food / flavour.
if i make cheesecake only 3 max 4 people eat that.
if i make chocolate cake hmm...that'll be quite a number of people who liked 'em. esp. kids..
hmm..i think i might go for chocolate cake so the kids (with the kids i mean hubby nephew) all 3 of 'em prefer chocolate then cheese :D
Here are the recipe : i adopt from paris pastry blogspot :D
Here's the link :
http://parispastry.blogspot.com/2011/01/old-fashioned-chocolate-cake.html
or might wanna make this :
http://parispastry.blogspot.com/2011/07/no-bake-raspberry-cheesecake.html
we'll see later on :D
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Mille Feuille Crêpes cake Recipe "Try out"
so 2 days ago i decided to make this cake, after work. i'm craving for this for long time but never have the gut to made them. Thanks to masterchef australia and thanks to the blogger that share recipe :)
i can't bear the craving any longer i decided to made and leave it overnight. so yesterday i start to make the crepes, it took me 2 hours to made this, but its all worthed.
ah...as for me because i forget to buy the assemble part cream, i made the pastry cream and the crepes in advance.lol..
the next day when i add the assemble cream to the pastry cream it won't stick, so i whisk it vigorously, yes it does stick but it turns out not as smooth as the recipe's one :)
well despite that minor, it's still yummy tho :D. Might try it again some other time :D
i got about 30 crepes coz i like it thin :)
Here are the recipe.
i also looked at this one here
http://www.recipelink.com/mf/14/19746
source : http://parispastry.blogspot.com/2009/02/mille-feuille-crepes-cake.html
Mille Feuille Crêpes Cake recipe: Batter adapted from "Joy of Cooking", pastry cream adapted from "Desserts" by Pierre Herme.
Ingredients for crêpes batter:
- 6 tablespoons butter
- 3 cups milk
- 6 eggs
- 1 ½ cups all-purpose flour
- 7 tablespoons sugar
- ½ teaspoon salt
Ingredients for vanilla pastry cream:
- 2 cups milk
- 1 tablespoon pure vanilla extract
- 6 egg yolks
- ½ cup sugar
- 1/3 cup cornstarch, sifted
- 3 ½ tablespoons butter
Ingredients for assembling cake:
- 2 cups heavy cream
- 1 tablespoon sugar
- 3 tablespoons Kirsch (I omitted this) --> me too
- Confectioners' sugar, optional
Instructions for crêpes batter:
- The day before serving the cake, make the crêpes batter and the pastry cream.
- Cook the butter in a small pan until it is brown like hazelnuts.
- In a large pan, heat the milk until steaming. Allow to cool for 10 minutes.
- With a mixer on medium-low speed, beat together the eggs, flour, sugar and salt. Slowly add the hot milk and browned butter. Pour into a contair with a spout, cover and refrigerate overnight. Bring batter to room temperature.
- Place a nonstick or seasoned 9-inch crêpe pan over medium heat and cover the surface with oil. Add 3 tablespoons batter and swirl to cover the surface. Cook until the bottom just begins to brown, about 1 minute. (you need to peek constantly, do this with a rubber spatula) Then carefully lift an edge and flip the crêpe with your fingers. (the crêpes are super hot, so cover your fingertops, or just your thumbs, with a band aid) Cook on the other side for 5 seconds. Flip the crêpe onto a flat surface. Repeat until you have 20 perfect crêpes. (I got about 17 crêpes)
Instructions for vanilla pastry cream:
- Bring the milk to a boil. Turn off the heat and stir in the vanilla, then set aside for 10 minutes.
- Fill a large bowl with ice and set aside a small bowl that can hold the finished pastry cream and be placed in this ice bath.
- In a medium heavy-bottomed pan, whisk together the egg yolks, sugar and cornstarch. Gradually whisk in the hot milk. Then place the pan over high heat and bring to boil, whisking vigorously for 1 to 2 minutes.
- Press the pastry cream through a fine-meshed sieve into the small bowl. Set the bowl in the ice bath and stir until the temperature reaches 140 degrees on a thermometer. Stir in the butter. Cover and refrigerate overnight.
Instructions for assembling cake:
- Whip the heavy cream with the sugar and Kirsch. Fold a quarter of the whipped cream into the pastry cream, then the rest.
- Lay 1 crêpe on a cake plate. Using an a rubber or icing spatula, cover with a layer of pastry cream. Repeat until you've used all of the crêpes. Lay the best-looking crêpe on top.
- Chill for 2 hours. Dust with sifted confectionars' sugar. When ready to serve, slice it like a cake.
Here's mine :D
Assemble cream
i can't bear the craving any longer i decided to made and leave it overnight. so yesterday i start to make the crepes, it took me 2 hours to made this, but its all worthed.
ah...as for me because i forget to buy the assemble part cream, i made the pastry cream and the crepes in advance.lol..
the next day when i add the assemble cream to the pastry cream it won't stick, so i whisk it vigorously, yes it does stick but it turns out not as smooth as the recipe's one :)
well despite that minor, it's still yummy tho :D. Might try it again some other time :D
i got about 30 crepes coz i like it thin :)
Here are the recipe.
i also looked at this one here
http://www.recipelink.com/mf/14/19746
source : http://parispastry.blogspot.com/2009/02/mille-feuille-crepes-cake.html
Mille Feuille Crêpes Cake recipe: Batter adapted from "Joy of Cooking", pastry cream adapted from "Desserts" by Pierre Herme.
Ingredients for crêpes batter:
- 6 tablespoons butter
- 3 cups milk
- 6 eggs
- 1 ½ cups all-purpose flour
- 7 tablespoons sugar
- ½ teaspoon salt
Ingredients for vanilla pastry cream:
- 2 cups milk
- 1 tablespoon pure vanilla extract
- 6 egg yolks
- ½ cup sugar
- 1/3 cup cornstarch, sifted
- 3 ½ tablespoons butter
Ingredients for assembling cake:
- 2 cups heavy cream
- 1 tablespoon sugar
- 3 tablespoons Kirsch (I omitted this) --> me too
- Confectioners' sugar, optional
Instructions for crêpes batter:
- The day before serving the cake, make the crêpes batter and the pastry cream.
- Cook the butter in a small pan until it is brown like hazelnuts.
- In a large pan, heat the milk until steaming. Allow to cool for 10 minutes.
- With a mixer on medium-low speed, beat together the eggs, flour, sugar and salt. Slowly add the hot milk and browned butter. Pour into a contair with a spout, cover and refrigerate overnight. Bring batter to room temperature.
- Place a nonstick or seasoned 9-inch crêpe pan over medium heat and cover the surface with oil. Add 3 tablespoons batter and swirl to cover the surface. Cook until the bottom just begins to brown, about 1 minute. (you need to peek constantly, do this with a rubber spatula) Then carefully lift an edge and flip the crêpe with your fingers. (the crêpes are super hot, so cover your fingertops, or just your thumbs, with a band aid) Cook on the other side for 5 seconds. Flip the crêpe onto a flat surface. Repeat until you have 20 perfect crêpes. (I got about 17 crêpes)
Instructions for vanilla pastry cream:
- Bring the milk to a boil. Turn off the heat and stir in the vanilla, then set aside for 10 minutes.
- Fill a large bowl with ice and set aside a small bowl that can hold the finished pastry cream and be placed in this ice bath.
- In a medium heavy-bottomed pan, whisk together the egg yolks, sugar and cornstarch. Gradually whisk in the hot milk. Then place the pan over high heat and bring to boil, whisking vigorously for 1 to 2 minutes.
- Press the pastry cream through a fine-meshed sieve into the small bowl. Set the bowl in the ice bath and stir until the temperature reaches 140 degrees on a thermometer. Stir in the butter. Cover and refrigerate overnight.
Instructions for assembling cake:
- Whip the heavy cream with the sugar and Kirsch. Fold a quarter of the whipped cream into the pastry cream, then the rest.
- Lay 1 crêpe on a cake plate. Using an a rubber or icing spatula, cover with a layer of pastry cream. Repeat until you've used all of the crêpes. Lay the best-looking crêpe on top.
- Chill for 2 hours. Dust with sifted confectionars' sugar. When ready to serve, slice it like a cake.
Here's mine :D
Assemble cream
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| the assemble cream (mix with pastry cream) |
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| the stack of crepes |
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| very 1st layer |
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| the after 3 hours refrigerated |
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| tadaaa....yummmm..the look itself is so so..but taste hmm.. |
Monday, August 1, 2011
IPAD 2 --> ios 5
Yihaaaaa...luv luv luv luving it...
IPAD 2 with ios 5..YAYYY...Awesomee...
still beta version tho and altho we have to pay quite dear for those but its all worthed. :D
you can do all this finger moves :D Which is new thing for us hahaha..
Here's the sneak peek :D
http://www.apple.com/ios/ios5/features.html
http://gadgetfeel.com/6-finger-moves-for-the-ipad-2-that-you-should-know/
Really need "extra" for this thing.
- extra money
- extra work
- extra queuing
First : we need to queue when buying. we get it @ibox central park with @VJauw and hubby
second : we have to pay cash hahahahaha..coz the credit card has problem rrrr...
third : we need to buy the uber expensive casing!
forth : now with the upgrade to ios 5 need to pay xtra money :D
what a TOY :D
IPAD 2 with ios 5..YAYYY...Awesomee...
still beta version tho and altho we have to pay quite dear for those but its all worthed. :D
you can do all this finger moves :D Which is new thing for us hahaha..
Here's the sneak peek :D
http://www.apple.com/ios/ios5/features.html
http://gadgetfeel.com/6-finger-moves-for-the-ipad-2-that-you-should-know/
Really need "extra" for this thing.
- extra money
- extra work
- extra queuing
First : we need to queue when buying. we get it @ibox central park with @VJauw and hubby
second : we have to pay cash hahahahaha..coz the credit card has problem rrrr...
third : we need to buy the uber expensive casing!
forth : now with the upgrade to ios 5 need to pay xtra money :D
what a TOY :D
He is Good. He is soo Good.. He is Jesus
since friday 2 weeks ago..back from COOL / FA (Family Altar) where a group of people praise together and then share about the goodness of our God.
so we sang this song.
Apapun yang terjadi dalam hidupku ini
tak pernah ku ragukan kasihMu Tuhan
lewat gunung yang tinggi
lewat lembah yang curam
Kau berfirman dan sembuhkanku
Kau bersabda dan slamatkanku
tak ada yang mustahil bagiMu
Yesus ku percaya padaMu
then back home..I already forget the tones, i've asked family at home but none get it. they sang this instead
apapun yang terjadi di dalam hidupku
selalu ku berkata Tuhan Yesus baik.
Nah..not that..so i asked Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit teach me please that song, the one we sing at FA. :(
but still i can't remember.
so the next friday which is, last friday..in my desperate act. i keep on asking Holy spirit.
mum in law suddenly sang that song. and i was like..
"ahhhhhh that song that song that song" i was looking for the tonessss..ahhh thanku Holy Spirit.
then last sunday at church, the last songs. they sang this song..hahahahaha...
and i'm in tears:D
and the preaching has answered my questions.
Well God..i know for sure there are no "by chance or accidentally" U have arrange everything :)
Thank You Jesus. love You..
so we sang this song.
Apapun yang terjadi dalam hidupku ini
tak pernah ku ragukan kasihMu Tuhan
lewat gunung yang tinggi
lewat lembah yang curam
Kau berfirman dan sembuhkanku
Kau bersabda dan slamatkanku
tak ada yang mustahil bagiMu
Yesus ku percaya padaMu
then back home..I already forget the tones, i've asked family at home but none get it. they sang this instead
apapun yang terjadi di dalam hidupku
selalu ku berkata Tuhan Yesus baik.
Nah..not that..so i asked Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit teach me please that song, the one we sing at FA. :(
but still i can't remember.
so the next friday which is, last friday..in my desperate act. i keep on asking Holy spirit.
mum in law suddenly sang that song. and i was like..
"ahhhhhh that song that song that song" i was looking for the tonessss..ahhh thanku Holy Spirit.
then last sunday at church, the last songs. they sang this song..hahahahaha...
and i'm in tears:D
and the preaching has answered my questions.
Well God..i know for sure there are no "by chance or accidentally" U have arrange everything :)
Thank You Jesus. love You..
Friday, July 22, 2011
KOM 100 - Father Son Holy Spirit
Yesterday in KOM 100.
One of the question is this...
God is One but often divide into 3 Person, which is
Father
Son
Holy Spirit
Why?
They are One but they act into you can say 3 functions and represents ;
Father : The creator
Son : The Doer
Holy Spirit : The Helper
Father : creates us, Father that wants us to be saved
Son : who do Father will, sacrifice himself, to redeem us from our sin, from death and gives us an eternal life.
who shows us the way to Father in heaven. He is Jesus Christ - Our saviour
Holy Spirit : who helps us going thru everything, helps us to be like Him - Jesus, helps us to fight our sin, remind us and many things you can think of.
then why 3?
coz we human consists of : Spirit (Father), Soul (Holy Spirit), Flesh (Jesus Christ)
coz Jesus came to this world in Flesh, be like us.
Why? Why? such a fuss to saved us humans? who are we that He the creator wants to saved us from this sinner world.
Hmm...yeah me often asked that, who are we Lord that You came into this world as Jesus Christ, to saved us from sin and gives us eternal life. i can't understand.
In Genesis it says
Genesis 1 : 26
"And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth"
so..each all of us human represent God's images, and if we trust in Son (Jesus Christ) we will be saved coz Jesus says in Joh 14:6
"Jesus saith unto him, i am the way, the truth, and the life: no man commeth unto the Father, but by me."
and God the Father himself said that too in;
Matthew 17 :5 : "While he yet spake, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them: and behold a voice out of the cloud, which said, THIS IS MY BELOVED SON, in whom i am well pleased; hear ye him."
Mark 9:7 : "And there was a cloud that overshadowed them: and a voice came out of the cloud, saying, THIS IS MY BELOVED SON: HEAR HIM."
2 Peter 1 : 17 :"For He received from God the Father honour and glory, when there came such a voice to Him from the excellent glory, THIS IS MY BELOVED SON, in whom I AM WELL PLEASED."
John 1:34 : "And I saw, and bare record that THIS IS THE SON OF GOD."
so it is not only Jesus himself who says that HE IS THE SON OF GOD, but FATHER SAID THAT TOO.
* well u can correct me if i'm wrong. me just sharing :)
* actually i don't know why i'm writing about this. it's just when i scroll the facebook page i suddenly become so bored of the useless things so i closed down the page and suddenly popped in my mind. why not write this.
and Holy Spirit guide me to search for the verses. (Lucky us in electronic bible u can search one word and it appear :) )
but still without Holy Spirit guiding me, i don't even know what to search :D
like this is the first time for me, obey :p hihihi..gosh..what am i earlier..rebel kid :(
Father in heaven, i was wrong, i apologized, and thank you coz i know You will forgive me :)
in Matthew 6 : 14 :"For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you"
so in order to ask for Father forgiveness, we must first forgive our enemy, people that we hate, people that we fight with :D
It's hard, it's not easy for real..but remember we have the Helper who is Holy Spirit, He will helped us throught it..
i often say in my prayer " God i can't forgive this person with my own strength, but i want to forgive this person, please Holy Spirit make me"
then i'll feel in my heart (sometimes up to days hehehe) a pityness and then i'll forgive 'em right away sometimes took weeks or months hahaha..
but appear in my mind. if i don't forgive them then Father in heaven won't forgive me and that is my loss..my biggest LOSS. so i just surrender to Holy Spirit and He make everything easyyyy..just flow..
Well i think i'm done for now :) back to my work
love love love u Father Jesus Holy Spirit.
Thank u thank u thank u alotttt for choosing me :D
GOD BLESS YA ALL :D
One of the question is this...
God is One but often divide into 3 Person, which is
Father
Son
Holy Spirit
Why?
They are One but they act into you can say 3 functions and represents ;
Father : The creator
Son : The Doer
Holy Spirit : The Helper
Father : creates us, Father that wants us to be saved
Son : who do Father will, sacrifice himself, to redeem us from our sin, from death and gives us an eternal life.
who shows us the way to Father in heaven. He is Jesus Christ - Our saviour
Holy Spirit : who helps us going thru everything, helps us to be like Him - Jesus, helps us to fight our sin, remind us and many things you can think of.
then why 3?
coz we human consists of : Spirit (Father), Soul (Holy Spirit), Flesh (Jesus Christ)
coz Jesus came to this world in Flesh, be like us.
Why? Why? such a fuss to saved us humans? who are we that He the creator wants to saved us from this sinner world.
Hmm...yeah me often asked that, who are we Lord that You came into this world as Jesus Christ, to saved us from sin and gives us eternal life. i can't understand.
In Genesis it says
Genesis 1 : 26
"And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth"
so..each all of us human represent God's images, and if we trust in Son (Jesus Christ) we will be saved coz Jesus says in Joh 14:6
"Jesus saith unto him, i am the way, the truth, and the life: no man commeth unto the Father, but by me."
and God the Father himself said that too in;
Matthew 17 :5 : "While he yet spake, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them: and behold a voice out of the cloud, which said, THIS IS MY BELOVED SON, in whom i am well pleased; hear ye him."
Mark 9:7 : "And there was a cloud that overshadowed them: and a voice came out of the cloud, saying, THIS IS MY BELOVED SON: HEAR HIM."
2 Peter 1 : 17 :"For He received from God the Father honour and glory, when there came such a voice to Him from the excellent glory, THIS IS MY BELOVED SON, in whom I AM WELL PLEASED."
John 1:34 : "And I saw, and bare record that THIS IS THE SON OF GOD."
so it is not only Jesus himself who says that HE IS THE SON OF GOD, but FATHER SAID THAT TOO.
* well u can correct me if i'm wrong. me just sharing :)
* actually i don't know why i'm writing about this. it's just when i scroll the facebook page i suddenly become so bored of the useless things so i closed down the page and suddenly popped in my mind. why not write this.
and Holy Spirit guide me to search for the verses. (Lucky us in electronic bible u can search one word and it appear :) )
but still without Holy Spirit guiding me, i don't even know what to search :D
like this is the first time for me, obey :p hihihi..gosh..what am i earlier..rebel kid :(
Father in heaven, i was wrong, i apologized, and thank you coz i know You will forgive me :)
in Matthew 6 : 14 :"For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you"
so in order to ask for Father forgiveness, we must first forgive our enemy, people that we hate, people that we fight with :D
It's hard, it's not easy for real..but remember we have the Helper who is Holy Spirit, He will helped us throught it..
i often say in my prayer " God i can't forgive this person with my own strength, but i want to forgive this person, please Holy Spirit make me"
then i'll feel in my heart (sometimes up to days hehehe) a pityness and then i'll forgive 'em right away sometimes took weeks or months hahaha..
but appear in my mind. if i don't forgive them then Father in heaven won't forgive me and that is my loss..my biggest LOSS. so i just surrender to Holy Spirit and He make everything easyyyy..just flow..
Well i think i'm done for now :) back to my work
love love love u Father Jesus Holy Spirit.
Thank u thank u thank u alotttt for choosing me :D
GOD BLESS YA ALL :D
Dedicated to You Jesus
This blog isn't all bout me or hubby or people around me anymore..it's about HIM who impact our lives :)
i will dedicated this blog for You Lord. Teach me to be commit to what i have say to You.
Teach me to be a responsible and reliable
daughter for You and my parents and parents in law,
wife, sister, boss for my staff, maid for You, student for You, friend and in everything and for anyone Lord
Like i have told You right Father...I wanna be like Jesus..my role model.
Process me, Teach me, Make me, Ask me, Tell me, Guide me...
Yes Lord Yes..Yes i wanna be Your loved one...
I wanna be an obedient student.
for I am not who I am anymore, but Christ in me should be bigger than me, fill me and rule me.
" Living according to Your Word "
it's not an easy job to do, but when we passed this, wowwww..i can tell ya. the impact was and is so big till i can't close my mouth.
This will be easy if you humble yourself and use your heart, not your brain :) and just do it :)
i can do it, why can't you. (read "my little testimony blog)
okey a little testimony to support this.
as i told you in my blog earlier, the first love is back right :) and how i now love reading bible and pray and praise.
i really thankkkk God so much for this.
so yesterday is pay day. (me and hubby hasn't been a responsible clerk. we have used the money more than we thought. we buy this and that, coz we have not realised yet that, this business is not belong to us, this is belong to God. anyhow, because we haven't been a responsible clerk yet, the money wasn't enough to pay supplier o..o )
so yesterday i pray. without any worries, i just say to God..Jesus, i pray to you, the money is not enough to pay the supplier, i asked for your mercy to please whether you gave us customer or the supplier forget to come and collect. hahaha..
and to my amaze. yesterday none of the supplier come and collect. they only come to exchange the invoice.
amazinggg rightttt :D HE IS SO GOOD. HE IS THE BEST :)
love love love Jesus..
PS : Frankly, before i never know how can one wrote love Jesus so deeply, i can never feel deeply in love with Him. but now i know how its feel :) and its an amazing feeling
i will dedicated this blog for You Lord. Teach me to be commit to what i have say to You.
Teach me to be a responsible and reliable
daughter for You and my parents and parents in law,
wife, sister, boss for my staff, maid for You, student for You, friend and in everything and for anyone Lord
Like i have told You right Father...I wanna be like Jesus..my role model.
Process me, Teach me, Make me, Ask me, Tell me, Guide me...
Yes Lord Yes..Yes i wanna be Your loved one...
I wanna be an obedient student.
for I am not who I am anymore, but Christ in me should be bigger than me, fill me and rule me.
" Living according to Your Word "
it's not an easy job to do, but when we passed this, wowwww..i can tell ya. the impact was and is so big till i can't close my mouth.
This will be easy if you humble yourself and use your heart, not your brain :) and just do it :)
i can do it, why can't you. (read "my little testimony blog)
okey a little testimony to support this.
as i told you in my blog earlier, the first love is back right :) and how i now love reading bible and pray and praise.
i really thankkkk God so much for this.
so yesterday is pay day. (me and hubby hasn't been a responsible clerk. we have used the money more than we thought. we buy this and that, coz we have not realised yet that, this business is not belong to us, this is belong to God. anyhow, because we haven't been a responsible clerk yet, the money wasn't enough to pay supplier o..o )
so yesterday i pray. without any worries, i just say to God..Jesus, i pray to you, the money is not enough to pay the supplier, i asked for your mercy to please whether you gave us customer or the supplier forget to come and collect. hahaha..
and to my amaze. yesterday none of the supplier come and collect. they only come to exchange the invoice.
amazinggg rightttt :D HE IS SO GOOD. HE IS THE BEST :)
love love love Jesus..
PS : Frankly, before i never know how can one wrote love Jesus so deeply, i can never feel deeply in love with Him. but now i know how its feel :) and its an amazing feeling
Thursday, July 21, 2011
My little testimony about Faith - Kesaksian kecil ku
okay.. Faith the word i guess...
Well this is a connecting lesson story :D...u'll know what i meant when u finished reading it.
a week earlier : in my mind i was thinking
"God how to write this esay, Living according to word of God, living IN the word of God..."
(Believe me He hears you, whatever you are going to say or even without u saying it, He knew)
on sunday : songs : God is able to do all things, in the past, present and forever
then couple days ago one lady that i introduce to Jesus, now she believe in Jesus.
text me, and she said " E, i have read about Jesus in Matthew and Marcus, i'm so touched and so interested in Jesus in person. The way HE treated people, how HE love everyone and not judging"
i'm stunned..my heart says to me "Have you touched people heart as Jesus touched people heart?"
i kept it in my heart and suddenly speak to myself, a strong will..."I will be like Jesus, I wanna be like Jesus..He is my role model. I wanna be like Jesus."
okay the day go on..until at night i went to, you can say a bible school not theology school.
the pastor preach about "how to be like Jesus" and else but we are now focusing on the how to be like Jesus part. and not allowed to complain or whinning
From there, my will to be like Jesus is stronger and stronger, my compassion is back, then without me knowing when my first love is backkkkkkk...i now love to read bible and talk to God and praise..
like weeks, months ago i sort of lost my first love, and i kept on asking the love from God again to fulfill me..and yes i got it now. Thank You Jesus a lot.
well that's not it yet..
after the bible school me and hubby went home. @ home before sleep i read a bit of twitter and one tweet from @Rick Warren catch me, it says: I'm sorry is not enough, one should say : I was wrong, I'm sorry, Will you forgive me?
i read that and say to hubby for fun "I was wrong, i'm sorry, will you forgive me?".
When i done nothing, no mistakes it is sooo easy to say such things..then snobbish me says "ahh its easyyyy"
okay..so...it's sleep time
after pray and bible.
The next day..i went to pick up my lil brother. when drives back, it is traffic and i lost a bit control. so i bumped on to other cars. Thank God the old lady didnt charge me anything. well her car is fine. Thank GOD heapsss...
i didnt know that my car was a mess until i got home, taking shower and ready to go to work.
Hubby says..did u crash just now? i was shocked! huh? i thought its fine, my brother look at the car and he say was fine, so i worried nothing. but he was wrong, the car a mess..not big mess just little..
then he is angry and furious, me scared :( and upset. i am in a bad mood for the whole day, but keep praying Holy Spirit strengthen me, i know it was all my fault, but he shouldn't be like that.
but not allowed to complain so the whole day altho me in a bad mood i kept on give thanks and asked Holy spirit to strengthen me..and sing and cry :)
anyway hubby seems upset for the whole day and i don't know what to do.
we went home, hubby went for badminton and me crying coz he abandoned me.
so i just pray and give thanks and decide to text him saying : "i know you must be hate me to death right now..i just wanna say I was wrong, i'm sorry, will you forgive me?". i did say sorry before but i didn't say i was wrong and ask for your forgiveness, but now i ask for your forgiveness.
then i pray and read bible and sleep. so i have do what God wants me to do :D
(but if its me weeks ago, i wouldnt be able to do such things, i wud text him and say that why he has to be mad, why he has to be upset, it's just a minor things, money can fix and end up fighting)
(but now i choose to calm down and give in)
it's all because of JESUS..THE NAME OF JESUS..Praise the Lord Jesus..
SO HUBBY CAME BACK AROUND 11.30 PM. I FELL ASLEEP ALREADY.
KNOW WHAT HE DO?
HE GO DOWNSTAIRS TO COOK NOODLE WITHOUT EVEN HUG OR KISS ME OR CARE ABOUT ME.
THEN HE CAME BACK UPSTAIRS. AND KNOW WHAT HE DO TO ME!!!!
HE KISSEDDDD MEEEEEEE :D hahahahaha.. Jesuss thankkksss a lotttt...
then when he wants to sleep, he hugged me and say he can't abandoned me for too long, he can't not care about me, he loves me soo much eventho i bumped his car :D
HEH??? Me was like whattt?? Thankkk uuu Jesusssss..Thank uuuu Lord.
i listened to your word and do it and then u repay me with things that i don't expect :D WOWWW...
from the bottom of my heart i thought he would just go to sleep and tomorrow will be a bit nicer to me.
but look at what he did, he hugged me and say stuffs that i don't expect coming from him.
altho he lovessss me sooooo much i can see by his action but he don't really say things like
" i can't abandoned u for too long, i love u so much" i was like :-0 "
i love u Jesusssss..i loveee uuuuuuuuuuuu thank u..
and know what it's not as hard as i used to think. that say sorry and admit our fault is the hardest thing ever.
it's not i can tell u its not..asked for God strength and HE will give you that :)
me :
a stubborn
a snobbish
a hard to say sorry
a don't wanna lose
a prestige
a easy 2 upset
me
but God changed me...to be who i am now...
Well this is a connecting lesson story :D...u'll know what i meant when u finished reading it.
a week earlier : in my mind i was thinking
"God how to write this esay, Living according to word of God, living IN the word of God..."
(Believe me He hears you, whatever you are going to say or even without u saying it, He knew)
on sunday : songs : God is able to do all things, in the past, present and forever
then couple days ago one lady that i introduce to Jesus, now she believe in Jesus.
text me, and she said " E, i have read about Jesus in Matthew and Marcus, i'm so touched and so interested in Jesus in person. The way HE treated people, how HE love everyone and not judging"
i'm stunned..my heart says to me "Have you touched people heart as Jesus touched people heart?"
i kept it in my heart and suddenly speak to myself, a strong will..."I will be like Jesus, I wanna be like Jesus..He is my role model. I wanna be like Jesus."
okay the day go on..until at night i went to, you can say a bible school not theology school.
the pastor preach about "how to be like Jesus" and else but we are now focusing on the how to be like Jesus part. and not allowed to complain or whinning
From there, my will to be like Jesus is stronger and stronger, my compassion is back, then without me knowing when my first love is backkkkkkk...i now love to read bible and talk to God and praise..
like weeks, months ago i sort of lost my first love, and i kept on asking the love from God again to fulfill me..and yes i got it now. Thank You Jesus a lot.
well that's not it yet..
after the bible school me and hubby went home. @ home before sleep i read a bit of twitter and one tweet from @Rick Warren catch me, it says: I'm sorry is not enough, one should say : I was wrong, I'm sorry, Will you forgive me?
i read that and say to hubby for fun "I was wrong, i'm sorry, will you forgive me?".
When i done nothing, no mistakes it is sooo easy to say such things..then snobbish me says "ahh its easyyyy"
okay..so...it's sleep time
after pray and bible.
The next day..i went to pick up my lil brother. when drives back, it is traffic and i lost a bit control. so i bumped on to other cars. Thank God the old lady didnt charge me anything. well her car is fine. Thank GOD heapsss...
i didnt know that my car was a mess until i got home, taking shower and ready to go to work.
Hubby says..did u crash just now? i was shocked! huh? i thought its fine, my brother look at the car and he say was fine, so i worried nothing. but he was wrong, the car a mess..not big mess just little..
then he is angry and furious, me scared :( and upset. i am in a bad mood for the whole day, but keep praying Holy Spirit strengthen me, i know it was all my fault, but he shouldn't be like that.
but not allowed to complain so the whole day altho me in a bad mood i kept on give thanks and asked Holy spirit to strengthen me..and sing and cry :)
anyway hubby seems upset for the whole day and i don't know what to do.
we went home, hubby went for badminton and me crying coz he abandoned me.
so i just pray and give thanks and decide to text him saying : "i know you must be hate me to death right now..i just wanna say I was wrong, i'm sorry, will you forgive me?". i did say sorry before but i didn't say i was wrong and ask for your forgiveness, but now i ask for your forgiveness.
then i pray and read bible and sleep. so i have do what God wants me to do :D
(but if its me weeks ago, i wouldnt be able to do such things, i wud text him and say that why he has to be mad, why he has to be upset, it's just a minor things, money can fix and end up fighting)
(but now i choose to calm down and give in)
it's all because of JESUS..THE NAME OF JESUS..Praise the Lord Jesus..
SO HUBBY CAME BACK AROUND 11.30 PM. I FELL ASLEEP ALREADY.
KNOW WHAT HE DO?
HE GO DOWNSTAIRS TO COOK NOODLE WITHOUT EVEN HUG OR KISS ME OR CARE ABOUT ME.
THEN HE CAME BACK UPSTAIRS. AND KNOW WHAT HE DO TO ME!!!!
HE KISSEDDDD MEEEEEEE :D hahahahaha.. Jesuss thankkksss a lotttt...
then when he wants to sleep, he hugged me and say he can't abandoned me for too long, he can't not care about me, he loves me soo much eventho i bumped his car :D
HEH??? Me was like whattt?? Thankkk uuu Jesusssss..Thank uuuu Lord.
i listened to your word and do it and then u repay me with things that i don't expect :D WOWWW...
from the bottom of my heart i thought he would just go to sleep and tomorrow will be a bit nicer to me.
but look at what he did, he hugged me and say stuffs that i don't expect coming from him.
altho he lovessss me sooooo much i can see by his action but he don't really say things like
" i can't abandoned u for too long, i love u so much" i was like :-0 "
i love u Jesusssss..i loveee uuuuuuuuuuuu thank u..
and know what it's not as hard as i used to think. that say sorry and admit our fault is the hardest thing ever.
it's not i can tell u its not..asked for God strength and HE will give you that :)
me :
a stubborn
a snobbish
a hard to say sorry
a don't wanna lose
a prestige
a easy 2 upset
me
but God changed me...to be who i am now...
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